It's hard to love someone who is already comitted.
25.01.2009 -1 °C
Dear Ibong Pipit,
Hi it has been a long time since my last entry in my personal blog. Sorry have been very busy lately. I decided to wrote an entry again, not for my usual topic about my friends but for myself. Di kpo din kasi ma-share laht sa mga friends ko. Syempre somethings has to be kept within yourself na lang, di ba. Kaya eto, I decided to write an entry para malabas ko lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.
This article though is it all about myself. Wala na kami ng naging long time partner ko. It has been 2 years since I have decided to let go of everything after fighting for a relationship that seems to be very unworthy. I already did my part, tama na siguro ang mahalin ko sya and give him everything that I have na hindi man lang pinahalagahan. So far, masakit oo, until now, I haven't fully moved on, but if I won't at magpakamartyr pa din ako, I won't grow as an individual. OO, mahal ko pa sya hangang ngayon, I won't deny that fact, I am a culprit but not a pretender. I am trying to move-on bit my bit. Gathering the pieces of my ownself that has been broken for 2 years now. Until this person came. He is totally different from other guys that I have met and been with a relationship with. Aside from the fact that he is not straight nor a bi-sexual, he has a totally different attitude as well. He is a friend of my dear roommate. It was one evening that I can't talk with someone though and hasnothing to do. I was very bored at that time os I ask my roommate to give me a textmate. It was just a joke at first, then he replied: Hu u?. The usual questions. We exchanged few text messages. After a few text sessions, We decided to meet up, last november 20, 2008. We have decided to meet up in a cafe in our building. From that point on, we started dating. Until now. The line between us is very unclear. He has a boyfriend that he introduced to me once. He is not my boyfriend, yes, but the fact that I have something to look forward to is what keeps me moving on. It maybe quite impossible for the both of us to be together at this time, but being with him is more than enough. Just wanna share this though, He sent me a message yesterday.
It is hard to love someone who is committed, but harder if that person loves you too.
Til then my dear Ibong Pipit. Thanks for letting me write again in your page. I feel alittle bit better now.[quote]