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Tier 2 Nikki - Thank you.

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"Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down."

- Oprah Winfrey

Sisterhood of the travelling gays. Yan yung naging bansag namin sa aming tatlo kasama yung isa pang bakla sa depatment namin na si Anton. Together we ventured Cebu last Sinulog 2010.

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Joewary Calimlim, a.k.a. The British Gay Tier 2 Nikki. Superb knowledge about the system and decision making. Those are the words that best describes this person.

Mataray pero magaling makisama. Parang unapproachable, pero madaling tumulong. Iba ang ugali nya sa hitsura nya.

Nabigla ako pagpasok ko last Monday sa e-mail nya. Pero mas nabigla ako nung malaman kong lumipat na sya ng site.

Walang may alam ng dahilan, lahat nabigla, pero whatever made you decide to leave, It's worth it.

Sa totoo lang di ko alam ang dapat isulat ngayon. I'm not used to having no Tier 2 Nikki on the floor. You have been one of the best if not the greatest.

Basta Joewa, sana maging maayos na lahat para sa'yo. Sana din magkaayos kayo ni alam mo na kung sino yun. Sayang ang matagal na pagkakaibigan nyo.

Galingan mo dyan. Alam kong you will make us proud at malayo ang mararating mo dyan lalo na't yan talaga ang field mo.

Gaya ng lagi mong sinasabi,

" Ikaw ay palaging nasa puso namin."

Naks...Emo mode..

Til Next Time,

Diosa

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Posted by akosidiosa 20:30 Archived in Philippines Comments (1)

Salamat 2011 dumating ka

Walang update ng pagkatagal tagal sa account ko..Minsan kasi talagang sobrang busy para makapagsulat ng entry..But I have decided to continue writing para naman kahit paano may mapaglabasan ako ng mga bagay-bagay that I can't share with friends.

January 1 I was set to visit a long time friends sa Olongapo..Everything was planned and seet for that day na sana ang mga events. Ang kaso ang contact ko wit na nagparamdan..

December 31 bago matulog..Ring lang ng ring ang cellphone ng friends ko. I was just simply thinking na baka busy sya for the preparations. Ang kaso new years day, ganun pa din hanggang sa pinagpatayan na ako ng gaga.At syempre dahil dati akong Girls Scout lagi akong may plan B. Together with my bestfriend, dun na kami nagpunta sa magandang lugar ng Fairview Quezon City. Nothing much to be expected though. The usual inuman during the night of January 1..At usual din na nakabooking na naman ang friend ko. Ako, Kinailangan ng matulog di pa kasi ako nakakabawi during that week sa sobrang kabesihan ( Promise wala akong nabooking ). The following day, Angie, cousin of my bestfriend. Sya yung nag-invite samen to join them sa isang inuman session kasama yung college friends nya..Palibahasa inum lang ang wala ako minsan, go naman kami ng bestfriend ko. Dahil ito ang simula ng taon, una kong ipapakilala sa inyo ang mga taong naging kasama ng aking late new year's celebration.Eto ang mga babaeng laging lason sa lipunan, chos..

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Unahin ang host ng event. Si Angie yung nag-invite samen..May hawig sya kay Angel Locsin ng konti..Mga after 30 years or pag naaksident sya. Malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanya this year dahil sa kanya nakilala ko ang taong nagpatibok ng aking Keps..Pero kailangang bawiin ang unang mga sinabi ko dahil baka di na nya ko ipromote sa bet kung kaklase nya..

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Eto ang dalawang Virgin sa grupo nila..Nakalimutan ko yung name, basta yung nasa kanan, cute yan in person di lang halata, at yung isa pre-school teacher. NBSB yung dalawa, pero di ako naniwala, parang mas bagay ang NBFL ( No Boyfriends for Life )..At syempre dahil baka mabasa nila ang entry, kailangang bawiin ulit lahat ng sinabi. Nung makita ko nga ang dalawa, nalaman kung maganda palang mabuhay..May mas malala pa pala saken..

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Eto naman si Rio. Yung babaeng gusto kong ipa-firing squad nung gabing yun..Kasama nya yung boyfriend nya at that time, na infairness super yummy. Nasabi ko ulit sa sarili ko that time na unfair ang buhay nung makita ko sya. Wala kaming picture na dalawa, naniniwala kasi ako sa kasabihang, walang taong pangit, depende sa katabi. Since gusto kong gumanda dunako tumabi sa naunang dalawa. Ahihi..( Girls, walang personalan entry lang. )

Mga around 11 PM may dumating pang dalawa. Syempre kung may single kailang at mandatory sa mga barkadahan ang may mag-jowa.
Sa kasamaang palad, nakalimutan ko din yung name. Wala naman akong mapagtanungan ng may pangalaan nila habang sinusulat tong entry. ( Queue here SUStagen premium commercial .)

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At syempre, hindi mawawala ang mga nagpasaya sa gabi namin ng bestfriend ko. Pero bago yan, let me introduce ang tinaguriang champion sa mga gay beauty pagaeants:

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This is Denver, my dear best friend. Sya ang nagturo saken kung paano ko gamitin ang aking pagkababae. Wala man sa hitsura ng katawan pero dati syang beauconera..Titlest in different competitions maging ito man ay pang baranggay or pang provincial. Kaso that was 2 years ago. Nung maging teacher sya sa isang University dito sa Quezon City..Hayun tumaba..Ngayon sabi nya diet sya, pero wala namng effect. Makakita lang ng pagkain, bukas na lang daw sya uli magdadiet.

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Sya naman si Nestor. Currently working with Maxim Hotel.Sabi nya may discount daw pag ako yung nagcheck-in basta kasama sya sa pag-check-in..ahihi..Pero syempre gawagawa ko lang yung kwentong yan. Hindi sya photogenic, pero in real life cute sya..May kalakihan yung tyan pero keri na..Walang arte arte sa baklang gustong makakeme.

And last, sya si Dan

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Hindi sya kamag-anak ni jamby ( tumboy ). Akala ko nung una kung makita, parang tumboy sya..Pinakatitigan ko talaga sya ng mabuti..In fairness may nocheness pala..One of the very kind persons that I know..Napatunayan ko talagang lalaki sya kasi hindi sya ilag sa mga gaya ko..This is the first time na nakafeel talaga ako na ang pechay ko ay para sa kanya kahit first meeting pa lang. You will know your soulmate when you met him or her instantly..

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Sabi sa chinese readings ko for the year of the Rabbit. My lovelife will blossom. Natapos ko na last year ang relasyon na matagal ko na sanang tinapos. It was talked and discussed with him at tapos na ang lahat. We parted as friends. Sana this 2011 iba naman kakasawa na kasing kumain ng ampalaya always..Ibong pipit guide my heart to someone who can take cre of it.

Till next time..

Posted by akosidiosa 07:43 Comments (0)

I want you to know

" Kung ako na lang sana"

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" Kung Ako na Lang Sana ang 'yong minahal.
Di ka na muling mag-iisa.
Kung ako na lang sana and 'yong minahal
Di ka na muling luluha pa
Di ka na mangangailangan pang humanap ng iba
Narito ang puso ko, naghihintay lamang sayo
Kung ako na lang san........."

If there is one thing in my life that I would cherish the most.. it's probably the day I met you..You bring me my sweetest smile and my most painful tears..I got the deepest love for you and it cause me so much pain knowing I don't have any right to be part of your life..

It all started druing the second year of my employment with the company that I am working on. I just recently got promoted and I am over with the guy that I have loved for years. I was heading a new chapter of my life. It was then through this close friend of mine that I met a man who taught me how to dream again. It was one Saturday evening while I was on lunch, I decided to go to the station of a dear friend of mine Aileen. It has been a long time that we haven't talked beacuse of busy schedule so to make-up with we just had a little chit chat while she is assisting her new team. After a few minutes then, Aileen went to the Rest Room. I was then reading at her e-mails and there came a man who approached me. Hi, would you mind if I asked your assistance? " he asked. "Sure, Not a problem." I responded. I was looking at this guy and from that moment on, I felt I have found the new one that I will invest my love to. From that point on, I always see to it that every free time that I have, I will help my friend just to see this guy.

Last Febuary 14, 2010, I have been helping out the time for over 4 weeks already. I am kinda familiar with the team that my friend is handling and somehow became close with them already. I was not expecting that I will be given a chocalate as a Valentines Gift. After their shift we went out to drink. From that moment on, I have promised myself, " I MAY NOT BE GIVEN A CHANCE TO BE HIS PARTNER , BUT I WILL FOREVER HAVE A VERY SPECIAL SPACE FOR HIM IN MY HEART. "

Time went by and we became good and close friends. I am the person though who would not just simply let the feelings be hidden without being heard, for I always believe that a love that is not given a chance is not love at all. I texted him one evening on my way to work.

Hi. I texted. He replied, "Fine. And you?"
"On my way to the office." I answered. I then sent him the message casually. " Know what Beyj, I like you. ".
He then jokingly replied, " Hahaha..No problem with me, As long as the mutual respect is still there."

Beyj, this message is all for you.

You just don't know how a single word from you delighted my days, or how your voice disturb my system..It's worth keeping the memories in my heart. I guess it just have to end this way..not all love has happy ending no matter how great and pure it is. In a short time I learned that love can't be measured by length of time or moments shared because deep down in my heart I know there will always be a space for you...

With time I have learned to care for you and this infatuation blossomed into love. I hope you know how much I love you..I can't say it with words but I said it with my eyes a million times. even beyond time this love will stand strong..I hope you happiness and long lasting joy. Thank you for everything.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

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Story of Regret

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My shift starts at 4:00 pm MNL time. Technically pag ganitong oras sa lahat ng callcanter servicing the US wala talagang calls. Nag-browse nalang ako sa internet to have something to read to ease the boredom. I found this story that brought tears to my eyes. I hope you'll love it too..

A Story of Regret

by: Anonymous

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back. That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy. The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.
Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."
With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!
Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.
The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.


The moral of this story is :
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

Posted by akosidiosa 00:26 Archived in Philippines Comments (2)

After all that I've done...

Confessions of a broken heart...

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Dear Ibong Pipit,

I am really sorry for not being able to update you on what's happening on my life. I was just so busy lately trying to find ways in forgetting someone that I once love that after all left me still. I am pertaining to the gay in my last entry, Tim. After a week of writing the entry he texted me na wala na sila ng bf nyang confused sa gender preference ( bi-sexual daw..no offense meant ). I was somehow saddened by the news kasi before he keeps on telling me that he would never give up kahit anong mangyari for a change daw sa lovelife nya. Nirespeto ko naman yun kaya although, I know I am gonna enter in a very complicated situation, I gladly accepted everything . Somehow underneath my always scattered brain, it was rejoicing. Bakla lang ako, I am not hypocrite, natuwa ako kasi alam kong kahit pano I am already seeing a clearer vision on what's gonna happen on our status. More than friends less than lovers. But all those hopes were shattered matapos kung malaman from him as well na ang bago nyang boyfriend eh ang bestfriend nyang mas bading pa saken na ayon sa kanya eh ( bi-sexual din ). I got mad at him not to the fact that he dumped me ( Oo sige na, somehow meron ding galit dahil dun) , but the fact that I was introduced to that bestfriend as his suitor. Another thing that aggreviates me is that di nya man lang sinabi saken na at that time nililigawan na din pala sya ng bestfriend nya. When I asked him to meet me personally because I need some explanations, he texted me:

" Dapat kasama si Mic, irespeto naman natin sya..."

and I replied:

" Bakit ako ba nirespeto mo, and besides can you understand that this is just between the 2 of us and this does not concern you new BF ( what I acually mean on this is his quoted bi-friend ). "

Pero syempre di ko tinext yun. Eventhough I hate him at that time. Ganito lang naging text ko:

" Huwag nalang kong sasama din sya..."

He even texted sorry to me. Sa isip-isip ko for what? Sa panloloko mo? Ang di ko lang naman matanggap is the fact na kumain ako kasama ang karibal ko pala. After that I have decided to erase him in my life. I deleted everything that would remind me of him, though it was difficult especially nung mga unang araw palang. I wanted to call him and say I am sorry and that I wanted him to be back eventhough may bago na sya. Buti nalang di ko ginawa. Naging tama lang din ang time nun coz I have a planned vacation unto my hometown. At least kahit pano magagawa kong kalimutan kahit sandali lang ang buhay ko sa MNL. Lahat iniwan ko sa airport on the day of my travel. Leaving not just the sad memories behind as well as the happy ones. Gusto ko kasi na pag-apak ko ng Leyte wala akong iisipin kundi ang mag-enjoy.

To tim, I thank you for helping me overcome a situation that I have been dealing with for almost 2 years now. I owe you for that. But I wanna tell you something as well.

" You are the craziest thing that happened to me. Mali man pero masaya pa din ako and I thank you for all of that but I hate you because you didn't even take into consideration when you chose that bi-quoted friend of yours over me. Isa kang tanga. Ubod ng tanga. But I can't do anything about it. Kanya-kanya lang katangahan yan. "

Lubos na nagmamahal,

Ang kaakit-akit na bakla

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